The Daily Habit

I used to write on this blog on a daily basis.  Now everything I want to write about seems so pretentious.  I kept it for 2 years while living in Thailand, and I have felt recently the need for an outlet.  What used to be my public writings has turned into the gym blog, and my scope for expression has diminished.  But here I sit, motivated to write, and can't think of a topic I'm ready to put to words.
The best way I know to break a writers block is to spend some more time writing about whatever comes to mind. 
What about the purpose of this blog?  What is something that has been interesting to me recently?  Or what is something I envisioned this blog being about?

Theology is one.  Because it matters.  And differences in theology matter.  It matters to society, to the natural world, and an individual's salvation.  I consider myself an Orthodox Christian, but any true Orthodox believer might take issue with that.  It's more right to say that I am an ally of Orthodoxy, but have not reconciled myself to the church.  I want to be, but Orthodoxy is not an easy religion.  Orthodoxy is not something you believe, it's something you live.  Daily prayer, holy days, fasts, scripture, evangelism, humility, theology, service, suffering.  There is much room in my internal life for these things, but I don't have them.  In addition to that, there is the simple practical obstacle of not connecting with regular worship.  The local church, St. Nicholas, though I love it, is mostly ethnically Greek in orientation.  Much of the service is spoken or chanted Greek, and there is no childcare.  Trying to keep a 2 and 3 year old happy on a hard pew while Lisa and I struggle to follow what's happening or being said, is a challenge we have yet to master.  The priest, Fr. Seraphim is awesome.  I dig his energy, his focus, and he's smart.  I connect with him and try to get to his weekly bible study. 
Orthodoxy just makes sense.  It makes sense in ways I didn't conceive of before getting to know Orthodox thought.  I want to share it with people because I think there are a lot people like me.  Who have questions about God, life, faith, and the church, who are dissatisfied with the answers they find in Protestant or Catholic Christianity. 
But I don't plan to talk much on my own authority, I'm an idiot.  You shouldn't trust me about anything to do with your eternal soul.  So rather than speak on my own authority, one idea I've been mulling is to transcribe and paraphrase some lectures I like to come back to.  A great resource is a podcast series called Roads from Emmaus.  Also, Orthodoxy and Heterodoxy.  I keep these in my ipod and come back to them again and again.  I just relistened to a 2-part series on Orthodox Ecology. 

It looks like I found my next project.